definitely , maybe .
this world is complicated.
leave me alone .
my mind is complicated ...
i don wanna hear a thing .

are my blogpost are getting harder to understand?
hahaha.

cos i'm lonely and i'm tired.

changed my blogskin haha!
tried to do my SM tutorial . XD
it's tough . grrrrrrrr .
hahaha , wong is going to kill me ! omg.omg.

And life is unfair , Emily dotes on me too just like yanwen, but she does
that by reprimanding me! ohno. haha!

i'm hungry but the sight of food is , yuck .
RARRRRRH.
my sister and me communicate at home using handphone haha.
we smses each other, haha. XD

ahgong is still sleeping , from 3 plus pm to now , 0203 plus am!! , hahahaha.
he's a pig . calling him tmr at 0630 am :DDD
nights my dear , off to bed now :DDD

hahaha.
ahgong is still sleeeeping , wanting to spam call him and
make him wake up , haha but i'm kind :D
shalll let him sleeep , he's so tired cos he's lacking of sleeep
everyday now .so poor thing .

and i totallly miss CBNB ):
i want the airport again ,and have popeye.
and play with the trolleys . jump up and down. hoho.
and remembered how they scare me everytime. haha.
and perhaps sakae again . xD.woooooooo.
how we decided to study every saturday and ended up
having fun at our secret hideout ((((:
and i want the beach , and cycling and whatever we did
together last time :D
i want an outing again!
of cos the members are me , ahgong plus bear XD
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

woooo! XD
see the man in greeen ? haha! he's my dear boy xD.

hmm what did i do today ?
i had CATS and S&W (: had assignment 2 already , haha.
ohno, the moment i step into the class , the teacher says: "KATRINA! you're early!!! FOR THE FIRST TIME! woooow! " LOL. XP
then got one classmate was like:" let's give her a medal or a trophy for being early!" haha.
yoga was so painful ! argh , i hurt my back while yanwen hurt her shoulder , haha. our bodies are too stiff! all the moves for us are so pain ! grrrr.

totally feeel sick when i see food. but i'm hungry , haha!
stupid stomach , hahahaha.
After schoool met emily,irvin,athirah and yanwen , (: cos dajie wan see us , hahaha! she misss us ? xD. we met for like 3 mins and left . haha.
then went off to buy EACH A CUP at the library ,with emily and yanwen :D
walked to the bus stop with yanwen , to meet Angel , if i remember , haha.
she asked : " how old are you ? "
i said: " 17"
and she's so shocked =.= urgh. she says : "i thought you're 14 . "
omg , i remembered jiamin saying i'm cao lao de lor . wth . haha.

My dajie and erjie , haha!
one always remind me of school work , hehe .
while the other one is always so fierce! (obviously this is Emily)haha!


that's all . ((:

didn't manage to meeet ahgong today at all .
for tmr it should be 3bottle in total! ((:
hahahaha , feeeed you till you puke , hehehehe.
3! xD. let's hope you will webcam with me , haha.
even though the chance is SLIM , but i want webcam!
:DDDDDDDDDD


irony.

finally , CEC project is completed , whooo (:
a load offff my back . hahaha.
now there's one more for ecology , hoho.
we're visiting a site on friday , at sungei kadut . hehe.
tmr's there's CATS and yoga , wahaha.
i neeeed sleeep , ohnoooo.
went to school with ahgong today , (:
latefor ecology again .
forgot to silent my phone , and haha! he stared at me .
and i was late for his lesssons again . ahhs.

had CEC make up lesson today , my eyes are like dam tired.
*closing.
but i cannnot sleeep. sadly . hehehe xD.
3 hours of wong wong is a killer , ARGH.
i managed to survive. hoho. her tutorials , whoooo. xD.
damm hungry , offff to makan . :DDDDD

a change ? perhaps.
tired? perhaps.
keeping my mind wondering.
it's getting deeeper.
"like i care"
perhaps , perhaps.

my mind's in a whirl .

URGH.


went our space for project.
today had lessons as per normal.
trying very hard not to fall asleeep during Mrs Wong's lesson.
it's HARD. but i never. how good.
she talked to us like tha day before for dammm long. so i decided to leave first,
yanwen and emily , haha! stayed longer ! they gave WONG promises xD.
hehehehe , ^^V I DID PROMISE NOT TO EAT IN CLASSS!!:DDDD
was very hungry , and hungry. HUNGRY!!!!!!
went for maths , had maths quiz , the first time , i feel that i will pass my maths.
hoho. hoho.heeeheee.hahahaa.

after school met ahgong , yess , the 74 is empty .
but there's no ninja warrior. )):
went for OLD CHANG KEEEE.
woooo. and bubbbbble tea :DD
went off to study maths , cos i randomly took out my math book and ask ahgong to teach mexD.
oh my god. he's fierce T.T
DAMMMMMM FIERCE , AHHHHRGH ):
the day just passed. hehehehe.

for once , i fell deeep for you.
deeper than i thought it'll be.

here i'm crying for you):

i'm happy when you are.
i'm sad when you are.
when you laugh , i laugh.
when you cry,i'll cry.

to be at where how it started between us.
wish things were always fine ,..
and how we'll smile together.
i miss you .
i love you.
i need you.
Don't leave me here alone.
i'll be so lost )):

this is me.
i can't survive without you.
cos you're my everything♥
yearning for your smile .
hoping to be by your side again.

but it's gone , forever , the trust that lies within.
destroys everything.
hoping here , that things will be fine .
always fine..
will it be?

be here with me .

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里


有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

haha went for study with ahgong for maths :D


no matter what , i'll always love you dear boy (:

hahaha! i think food is the thing on earth ! :D

don't eat too much ,but eat what you want! hahaha!
i love food!
discussing what to eat in class even before break everyday , haha!
fatfat xD.

off to bed now! tired):
recieved the lab photos le! upload them soon! (:

k people , goodbyes!
loves , hee xP

shall you do it first ?

omg omg , omg.
got to sleeep now .

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i shall learn not to be overly dependant .

freaked out day.
omg, i'm beginning to be sucky again.
ohno. xD.

yea learn to be happy , so you shouldn't be too
concern about others (:
that's when they become selfish. isn't it ? haha!

hahahahas.
met pris today to collect my bags and SP shirt.
S is quite big la , i think omg, hehehe.
omg la, i love my wallet. hehe :D
took a random photo together which is sooo haha , not nice.
i have to clean my laptop haha, full of finger prints! omg.

haha photos with yanwen and emily !! ((:

photos :D
took more at the EH lab today with our white robe , haha.
looked professional and smart la! xD
upload them soon when i get them.
ahhh lazy to blog more , haha!

this few days was school, obviously.
haha.
monday :
was maths , hmm , haha!
the maths teacher is fed up with us the last row la.
cos the 3 of us is not listening to him , hehehe.
and surprisingly, Fiona is dam quiet . haha!
then was EH , haha. i don't get it at all .
all the long long names , xD
then was SM i think , boring and it makes me so sleepy.
*yawns
had lunch with classs , hehe , ate at canteen 3, cos it's raining.
hehehehehehehe . hate it man !
met ahgong , yay.
for dinner and went home.
:DDDDDDDDDDDD

Tuesday:
12th May 2009.


omg, i don't remember what to blog le.
remembered went to school at 12 to meet ahgong for
lunch , haha! TomYam ,ahgong can't take it , too spicy for him le!
HAHA! bought my mango , but too full liao , cannot finish.
went to class late , haha! during lecture , played com all the way.

think it's Mrs Wong lesson ?xD

LOL. (: better than falling asleep right ? xD
Then was maths , Mr poh ! haha! got quiz , stared blankly at the paper !
thinking , what the hell is this?! haha!
handed up, mr poh says : " why blank? "
hahahahaha!
schoooool ended . ((:
went home to do my lab report , ahgong helped too ^^
hmm , haha! done my SM quiz too ! i got 80 % ))):
not as expected the day as it is to be .
hohoho.

Wednesday:
First lesson was EH ,i realise i was never punctual for his lessons. omg.
xD haha!
yanwen and emily was late tooo , they waited for me at blk 30 , haha!
went to classs , didnt get to sit at our favourite spot , THE BEHIND SEATS!
all full ! had to sit all the way at the front row :X
feeeeels so weird ,we don't like the front , haha!
played com all they way ! , LOL .
then went to do our homework , hahaha , omg , hardworking? hehehe.
went to get my subway cookie from ahgong !xD
didnt eat it till now , haha!
Went back , then went dapao subway for lunch , haha!
queued all the way till 12 plus ?omg.
went for our ECO , haha ! presentation time !
my hands were soo cold . haha!
glad it ended fast , xDDDDDD
then went offff to Maju Campsite to take photos .
didnt get to enter the site , cos we didnt wear shoes. haha!
went back for SM tutorial . haha!
Mrs Wong keep shooting me ):
the last row esp ! dam ! haha!
then went to meet ahgong at Atrium ,along with Kenji and Cardus.
bus-ed to Orchard to have Sakura ,
Ian's birthday ,haha!
Ate till quite full , xD cool man, got Unagi ! hahahaha!
perhaps going back to visit yit kee ? haha!
went to take photos and homed.
Haoming spon us for cab , LMAO xD
but we didn't , haha!
tiring .
cMt. haha!

Thursday:
wooo ,woke up early in the morning ,
MRTed down to Dhoby Ghaut ,haha.
saw ALOT of NP students , went to meet yilin first,
then saw Nazri , so walked to the museum together.
omg, dam sian la. and scary , museum like haunted house!omg!
dammmm scary!
didn't finish walking the thing and zao le. SIAN!
it would be much more fun if i went with my niaoniao! ^^
went for long johns.
den DAISO , was running late , cabbed down to NP.
met yanwen at canteen 2 (:
omg , late! left with the smelly mat !>.< Friday :
which is today , hahahahahahahahahaahahas!
omg omg omg, don't feel like blogging le. (:
went mac with ahgong after school for mac!

pon all the projects stuffs , CATS , meeting ,whatever.
haha.
tonnes of homework to do! AWWWWWW.
i don't give a dammmmm. haha, of cos not.
must do weellllll! :D

speechless :l

I cannot speak, I can barely hear you
My world spins around in silent slow mode
Could you please repeat these words I swear you now seem to utter so softly to me
Confusion stares blankly as you ask if I do
Your frustration's confirmation that you said I love you

Please forgive me I was just catching my breath
Blown away by every part of life making sense
Shaken by the dream that we're sleeping the four letter word that is all, hopelessly gone,
I fall

This coffee's still hot, but time is frozen
I'd say makes you, but that's unspoken
I wish that this shot could be replaced
Whenever we lose sight of all that we've got
Illusion is now real but the shock is still here
I do my best to keep control and fight back ten million tears


Fall into your arms, so scared,so please don't hurt me
Know that my heart will stay here,and is safe with you
I can't say all that I feel, so take this kiss for all the words I mean to offer you

Please forgive me I was catching my breath
Confusion stares blankly as you ask if I do

Awoken by the dream that we're sleeping
The four letter word that is all
Hopelessly gone
I fall

any ideas ?
i have no idea.

moodless.
shall go out for a breather .
hais .

fighting all these day .
all night long....
ahhhh .

CONFUSED):
where am i heading to ?


hate the lightnings and thunder going on, heh.
i wanna sleeeeep know .


guess it's enough about me.
OFFF TO SLEEEP SOON ENOUGH.

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY !

my mind ,tell me what i'm thinking now ?
i don't know .
maybe i'm just not me anymore.
i've become someone else, who's afraid .
of everthing .

told myself ,
told myself ,
it's gonna be this way and not get any better.

FOR EVERYTHING I DID SEEMED SO WRONG.
times and times again , i'm tired. :l
helpless , at a loss for words, and the courage to face you.
in a world of yours , and lost in mine,


and i want my dear boy to cheer up (:

so fucking tired of all these .
Give me a break .
This is suffocating me .
no blames on any .

a tit for a double tat.

lots to learn , but i'm dying.
helpless.

Ohno, i'll be late again . haha.
i have 40 mins left to bathe and to be at the entrance of woodlands library.
XD


and i'm hungry T.T

LOL.
freaking tired .
hopes things stays like this forever.
and kills me(:

YESSS , in terms of mentality.
FUCK.

I'm suppose to be occupied with my studies,but i'm not.
except that i've done my MOL. hehe.
There's still SM , which i suck at the calculations and fall asleep
during the lecture, LOL.

and PROJECTS , group work , haha.
And my maths tutorials, and SM tutorials.
LOL.and i have biology ,with all those long long names.
i can't read. hoho.and which i'm always late .

just can't get them into my head. AH.
get me into the mood of studying man !!

missed my lab session today ,cos i forgot about it .
till yanwen sms me and ask me where am i .
omg.
went at 1 for CEC , hahaha , had cookie and lemon tea .
then was maths tutorial , which i'm seriously doing my maths.
haha.
but then my earphones was murdered by me .
They splitted into half ! ):
sms ahgong haha , CS CS CS !!
met him at makan place , he joined me yanwen,emily and chenyan for lunch.
omg lar , tomyam , SPICY !
then ahgong was laughing obviously at me.
which he keeps denying that he did.
YES YOU DID LA!
Then waited dam long for 74 ! grrrr.
took 74e in the end , which is ex ex ! and i can't use my concession.
and i realise i got 40 cents in my pocket . xD
haha !
slept in the bus , SLEEEPY ,ohwells, ((:
reached AMK, haha , i wanted suki but the queue was so long !!!!! T.T
so had long johns in the end , haha ! :DD
my clam chowder ! ^^v
ohdear , i shall become smarter , to be of some help to ahgong . hehe!
i want more clothes ! and of course , ULTIMATE EARPHONES! :D

and Jia Min , Fiona and Ah piao are going back to visit yit kee tmr !
AT 4!! when i'm having SM tutorial -.-
NOT FAIR !
yay , meeting up with Zehybye real soon i guess(:

sometimes we're just asking for too much ,
we should be happy with what we have now.
Desires are never ending , stop asking for the impossible .
so be it , if you doesn't get what you want .
Let it be,at the very least you've tried.

Sunday .
LOL.
out with 1E01 .
Stupid Emily want beat me if i can't reach NUM in 5 mins time):
I'm the latest to reach ,LOL :D
wasted my time , alot of time.
stoning outside FOX.
no plans , nothing .
LOL.
yanwen and me were already dam hungry , discussing what to eat.
went cine , then far east makan , lol.
took 132 back to AMK to meet ahgong:D
at K pool . HAHAHAS.
along with ian and rongyi.
i played against ahgong and i won ! xD


then went home with ahgong ^^v

Friday - Labour Day .
went out with ahgong , haha.
out of the blue , we went to buy our havaianas.
HAHAHAS.
supposed to shop for our bags.
so off we went to suntec , heeeeeee .
took 133 there , and we're damm hungry .
pooor ahgong , car sick . ohno.
stupid smelling bus , TSK TSK ! hahas.
ALOT OF SMELL LA.


reach le , FOOOOOOD. xD.
yay. full liao , HAHAHAHAHAHAHAS.
forgot to eat my donut factory ):
but i'm very full already . haha.
went to search for our bags , haha.
walk here walk there , hoho.
Got abit lost in marina square , LOL XD
so we bought ours in the end, black !
quite tired , took 162 back to hub .
watched horsemen xD
nice story ,dumb ending la , tsk . haha.
popcorn, popcorn , popcorn :DDD

home sweet home with ahgong (((:

He asked if miao is okay .

had CATS today , smart me invented a toilet bowl which
can boil eggs .
HAHA.
more projects coming up.omg.
yoga was fun , how to sleep ? XD

however miao , cannot balance ):
kept falling off the mat . T.T
HAHAHAHAS.

then went to meet ahgong they all for pool.
LOL. KFC . i have 70cents . XD so nv eat .
went walk walk ,
homed(:

no point.
pointless.

no use crying.no use being sad. to him , they're all lies . no point wanting him ,when you know he'll be gone again .no point begging for him , when no words help.

helpless. but i'm telling myself , i'm okay .

are my blogpost are getting harder to understand?
hahaha.

cos i'm lonely and i'm tired.